My very simple definition of Shadow and Ego is this-we are born with all of our traits and characteristics.  And, as we learn about ourselves, our families and our culture we start to let some aspects of ourselves shine and other aspects – those we deem less worthy – we push down into the shadows.  The aspects that we push down are not necessarily “bad”.  They are aspects that we believed (at the time) did not fit in with our culture.

 

I feel a push within myself towards greater authenticity-more of a 100% claiming of all that I am without fear.  However – I am not immune to the words of others.  I carry hurtful words far longer than necessary and occasionally allow myself to believe those things.  I don’t want to hide my “who I am” any longer – I want to step out into the world with greater courage around sharing my unique gifts.

 

Do you ever hide?  Attempt to blend in?  Not claim all of who you are out of fear? I have and I do sometimes.  I also have been a manager of information.  Like the VP of Information Management!  And, goodness, it did hurt – both me and others who I cared about.  Oh, that was painful and embarrassing and something that I felt like I couldn’t stop doing.  And, you know what?  It was a bit difficult.  I might have lost my courage a couple of times.  And, it feels much better now.  On this side?  Much more authentic.

 

And, as I continue this journey, and work more with my shadows – I believe that illuminating shine will make all the difference in me accepting me.